Wandering of Mind

This is just wandering of my mind. I’ve been thinking about few things for a long time now, and decided to post it. Most probably no-one will read this, but at least it will be “out of my mind” and might be able to survive and develop.

The thing is: I’m away from home, away from people I love and I care about. I’m away from my friends. And I’ve been thinking if that’s right thing to do? They (friends and family) aren’t going to be around forewer. Didn’t I wasting my time by not spending it with them? I know when they’re gone I’ll regret every second I didn’t spend talking to them!

And another thought: I’m crap on keeping-in-touch. I haven’t wrote a single word to someone who’s been one of my closest friends. Now I don’t know if we’re still friends, or if that person is very angry at me for not wrtiting or ringing and will not consider us as close as we used to be anymore… But that goes into “self-pity” and “self-mutilation” department (”oh I’m so bad, I’m not worth your love”, and I expect a tons of “no, you’re very nice, don’t be so hard on yourself” in return).

I’m loosing friends out of my stupidity. My advice to the whoever reading this: don’t do the same mistake.